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Life is beautiful whether you're soaking in sunshine or caught in a thunderstorm. I take the beauty of life for granted too often. I have a supportive husband who I don't want to live life without, a beautiful son who is always reminding me of the simple things that really matter, and an independent daughter who is teaching me to throw schedules out the window and live in the moment. My day is made when free samples fill my mailbox. I love discovering a new product and sharing it with others. I hope you will enjoy reading my posts and will share your stories with me as well.

Monday, October 20, 2014

My Song For the Day - "Cornerstone" by Hillsong

We sang this song at church yesterday morning.  I've sung this many times before but it hit me like a ton of bricks yesterday.  

This move has made me a roller coaster of emotions.  One day I'm praising God for working out details and providing for this move.  A couple days later, I'm discouraged and wondering where God is.  Why is it taking so long to close on a house?  Why do we keep running into hiccups?  Where are you God?  Isn't this where You wanted us?

We received bad news on Thursday from Wells Fargo saying that the title on our house was "cloudy".  Basically the house was foreclosed and a company bought the house to sell to a contractor who then flipped the house and then sold it to us.  All of this in 30 days made red flags pop up everywhere to Wells Fargo.  They consider it "messy" and they don't have to deal with the mess if they don't want to.  If they decide to approve the loan, we won't be able to close until the end of November.  Our housing allowance ends one week from today.

The weight of the world was on my shoulders Thursday night.  Where do we even start?  We can't afford the hotel we are currently at.  Everything we own is in storage and that contract is up too.  It's overwhelming to think we need to have it all delivered to a temporary place only to have to move it again by ourselves to the new house....if it ever gets approved.  You can definitely say I was questioning everything at this point.  

I was not a nice person to my family this weekend.  I was very crabby and my sweet, patient husband had to deal with the brunt of it.  I forgot all of God's blessings and how He has brought us this far.  I only focused on the big problem starting at me in the face.  I wondered where God was.  I didn't want to wait for answers.  I needed to know right away what the end result was going to be.  I allowed Satan to work in my heart rather than giving it to God.

As we sung this church yesterday morning, God spoke to me in the second verse. 

"When darkness seems to hide His face,
I rest on His unchanging grace,
In every high and stormy gale
my anchor holds within the veil."

The bad news we received on Thursday didn't change God's grace to us.  He was, is, and will always be there for us.  As quickly as my praising changed into questioning, God's grace didn't change.  He may not be working out everything in my timing, but in His big picture, it's perfect timing.  He didn't stop loving me just because I doubted His goodness. 

 Instead of making me "pay" for not trusting that He in control, He has allowed Mike's company to extend our housing allowance until November 15th!  Instead of making me "suffer" and  start the process of finding a new house, He provided another mortgage company to give us a loan at a lower interest rate!  Yep, I'm pretty much in awe and humbled by God's love for me right now.  Nothing I can ever do or say will ever change God's love for me.  He continues to show His grace to me over and over again.

Nothing can stop God's plan for our life.  
Isaiah 14:27 says "For the Lord of hosts has planned, and who can frustrate it? And as for His out-stretched hand, who can turn it back?"  
Jeremiah 10:6 says "There is none like You, O Lord; You are great, and great is Your name in might."

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