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Life is beautiful whether you're soaking in sunshine or caught in a thunderstorm. I take the beauty of life for granted too often. I have a supportive husband who I don't want to live life without, a beautiful son who is always reminding me of the simple things that really matter, and an independent daughter who is teaching me to throw schedules out the window and live in the moment. My day is made when free samples fill my mailbox. I love discovering a new product and sharing it with others. I'm addicted to coupons and every penny counts. I hope you will enjoy reading my posts and will share your success stories with me as well.

Monday, February 17, 2014

"Because I Know That You Love Me...Your Love Never Fails"


 
"Your love never fails..."  I am SO thankful God gave this song to me this morning.  I made a phone call yesterday that was not fun to make.  I hate the feeling of failure.  I know I can't save the world but there are times I just want to give it my darn best. 
 
J came to live with our family in October.  When we first received the call from YAP, we were a little nervous, but we were willing to give him a trial period for a month.  We thought maybe with a structured environment and lots of love we might have a chance to change this little boy's life.  Each week I would think this is the week that we are going to see the dramatic change in him.  Maybe this week he'll be good.  This week there will be no anger.  We had a great weekend so this week he'll behave in school.  The last three months have been extremely exhausting.  I'm not going to go into details.  Just trust me when I say that I have an entirely new respect for Moms which that deal with ADHD children every day.  I may have succeeded in taking care of J's physical needs but I failed on his emotional needs.  I had to make an emergency phone call to YAP yesterday morning telling them I just couldn't do it any longer.  They needed to find J a new home asap.  They were able to place J within 3 hours in a new foster home. 
 
This song was just what I needed to remind me that God's love can never fail on us.  I may feel like I gave up on J and failed him, but knowing that God's love has never changed on either one of us is awesome.  It gives me hope that J can have a successful future because God's love for him never changes no matter how many foster homes he may have to go to.  It gives me hope that God will give me a renewed strength to foster children again.  "Because I know that You love me....Your love never fails."

2 comments:

  1. Your story is so familiar. I have had to make that call myself and I remember feeling like I failed. I had to learn that what I gave for the time I gave it was all a part of God's plan. I believe God gives the wisdom to know when the help He wanted you to give was given and your time with that child is complete. The verse that states that "some planted and some watered..." is so perfect when you think that you have planted the seeds God wanted you to plant and that now He has a plan for someone else to water. God was so good to place J in your home and to be shown God's love through you. Thank you for sharing what God is teaching you. What a great encouragement to other foster parents who also may be struggling.

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    1. Thank you! That was incredibly sweet and encouraging. I loved how you used the verse some planted and some watered. I never even thought of it that way and it puts it in a whole new perspective for me!

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