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Life is beautiful whether you're soaking in sunshine or caught in a thunderstorm. I take the beauty of life for granted too often. I have a supportive husband who I don't want to live life without, a beautiful son who is always reminding me of the simple things that really matter, and an independent daughter who is teaching me to throw schedules out the window and live in the moment. My day is made when free samples fill my mailbox. I love discovering a new product and sharing it with others. I hope you will enjoy reading my posts and will share your stories with me as well.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Figuring It Out...

Six weeks ago today, I came home from the hospital with Bradley. I could of never imagined what life was about to be with two babies 11 months apart. Being foster parents, we've had many children come into our home, sometimes 2 and 3 at a time. So I thought it would just be like those times. I was very wrong. 

I wasn't prepared for the fact that my body had experienced something so extreme that I would be in pain for almost six weeks. I'm not a very emotional person so I wasn't prepared for myself being able to cry for no reason at all. I didn't know how draining breastfeeding can be. You know when you have the flu and your body feels fatigued and drained? That's how it feels when breastfeeding. I knew Ty would have jealousy issues but I didn't know it would take six weeks for him to come around to liking his baby brother. I think he's finally realizing that Bradley is here to stay whether he likes it or not. I had five weeks of different family members at the house helping me. I was very grateful for their help, but I needed to figure this "Mommyhood" thing out by myself. 

In the past week, I've learned that my days are not going to go as I want them to. I'm a huge planner and I like for things to go my way. With two babies, it's not going to work my way. They make my schedule and control my day. I'm realizing that being a great Mother to these boys is the most important thing I can do. It doesn't matter if my sink is full of dirty dishes or if the carpet doesn't have vacuum lines on it. As long as my sweet boys feel loved and taken care of, that's all that matters in my life. Everything else gets tossed aside for now. I have to cherish these moments while I can. 

The song posted below I first heard at a Mother/Daughter tea banquet when I was about 12 years old. I didn't realize how meaningful it would mean to me today especially since the special moments with my own Mother are over. I can only remember the memories I had with her. I hope this song is a great reminder to you of how we just need to make each day count and cherish every moment!

1 comment:

  1. You are blessed with two little ones in your life! You're great Mommy! Each stage will get easier! The boys know that you love them and that is what really matters.